Very long eventful weekend!

Well I officially leave in like 36.5 hours. It is crazy how the time has flown! I have been so busy lately it isn't even funny! It all started Friday!

Friday at around 7 am my mom texted me saying see you tonight. That meant we were going to West Virginia to see family. That also meant I had a ton of quick packing to do, go to class, get my medicines for the month, and be ready for Monday. All in a matter of 4 hours! As I was getting ready to walk to my class, my teach

er sends an email saying that class was cancelled because she was sick. So I got to leave an hour early.

After 4 hours of freaking out that I had a flat tire, I got to Mooresville and got the air checked. Then ventured home! When I got home, I said hey to my parents and the puppies, and went to surprise my brother at his friends house! He pulled me out of the room he was in, closed the door, and gave me the TIGHTEST hug!

Here is a little background on my brother. He is 15 years old, way taller than

me, and has never hugged me! It totally surprised me! Needless to say you're never too old for a hug from your little brother. It was what I needed too.

So dad went to get the family food. When he got back, we all ate, dad took my brother to work and mom and I left for our trip! Well after stopping at Clinique for some much needed make up. Lets just say I have been squeezing the foundation out for weeks, and using purple for special occasion eyeliner for a while now....

After a long 6 hour drive, it was 2:30 am and mom and I were exhausted! The next day my grandma made buckwheat pan

cakes? I think that is what it is cal

led. Okay they are disgusting! Later mom and I went to the town she grew up in. It was really cool to see where she grew up, and where her parents lived while they were married. Then we had the party :)

Parties in West Virginia involving the Hanlin's are quite interesting! I think anyone who is not part of the family would be terrified of our get togethers! They're a blast and EVERYONE lets loose!

The hardest part of going there is hearing everyone ask about Christopher, ask when they'll meet him, etc. It kills me becaus

e I want to take him there! He just doesn't get time off to go! So my answer to them is eventually, one d

ay.

Eventually, one day is my answer to everything nowadays it seems.

So Sunday when it was time to go it was a long, gross 6 hours! When we got back to Mooresville, I still had 4 hours to go, I was starving, and tired of

being in a car. So daddy took me to Salsaritas, gave me Red Bull (even though he knows I hate it) and sent me on my way. About 2 hours into the trip I was exhausted, couldn't see, and giving up! So I called my grandparents, they live an hour from my school, to see if I could stay with them. So I got there at like 11, printed off lectures for the next day, and passed out!

I woke up at 6 am to be at school no later than 8:00. Idk if you added but that is over 20 hours of driving in 3 days! Boy oh boy was I exhausted!

Now I am back at school in my normal routine! Got my nails done today, and went to try on dresses for the ball and get color swatches. They called Chris my fiance and it totally tripped me out! I stuttered and told her what she was asking.

I see him in 2 days and I am soo excited! I can't wait! It's going to be great and definitely much needed!

Now I am off to pack and do yet another load of laundry!

It's a new day!

So this morning as I hit the snooze button for literally the 10th time, I finally decided to get up and face the day. It was a new day right? I had wiped my hands of the drama and problems. So I got up, put on jeans and a t-shirt and threw my hair up in a ponytail (my new look, no make up. don't judge!) drank my slimfast and headed out to my dreaded 9 am chemistry class.

I had a four hour break. It was great! I had a test at 2. Plenty of time to study, right? Wrong! Apparently when you stay up until 1am to talk to your boyfriend, and stayed up until 4 am the night before with no nap, you're REALLY tired! I had a 2 hour nap! Thats really long for me! I usually get an hour tops! Well I needed that extra hour. However did not need how I woke up. (He may hate me for telling you all this but im going to!) Christopher sweats in his sleep like bad! Well when I woke up from my nap, I was drenched! That may be gross, okay it is lol. But I swore I was sleeping with Christopher. When I woke up, he was not there. The zebra body pillow was as close as it got. It was horrible! I missed him soo bad!

Anywho! I took my test and feel really good about it! Thank goodness! who knows how I did though! So fingers crossed!

So I leave a week from tomorrow morning. Needless to say I AM SOO EXCITED!!! He's already making plans! It's great!

Tonight wasn't as great as I thought it would be. Until later that is. I tried calling a few times and he was working out. It irritated me like crazy! I was soo mad! I talked to one of his friends. Who really gave me the best advice. I can't get too overwhelmed too quickly. He is really stressed and he may never understand my stress. We both have stress. Different levels, and different extremes and types. That was just a touch of the advice he gave me. I truly am greatful for him tonight. He has no clue how much he helped me. Even got me joking about Christopher. It was great.

So when I finally got to talk to Chris I was calm and crying happy tears. It was great! As for his drama, I'm done being in the middle. End of story. :)

But we're good! Making plans for our trip and getting more and more excited! He promised me a beach trip since ours last time got rained out (Never listening to the boys anymore about the weather lol) and lazy, just us nights thursday and friday. So excited! Even though that means the guys will probably be with us it doesn't even matter!

So I'm going to go watch the Real World New Orleans, and boo hoo about how I miss my family!

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A drama filled day

All day today I have been dealing with unwanted drama. Here's the deal with drama. I HATE DRAMA! It is soo uncalled for and ridiculous! I try to stay out of the drama unless it directly involves me. Even then I make my point and ignore the rest.

Todays drama was not mine but I got to deal with it. Story of my life. I love this life but damn does it have its ups and downs. I have tried everything. I have taken the drama and shielded it from Chris because he doesn't need that drama in his life. He doesn't need to know everything I deal with. But today I had a realization. I am done dealing with those problems. All I can do now is tell them to go to him. I've realized that I have stress too. It's not just him. Our stress' may be different and to different extremes but we both have stress. My stress is school and him. I'm taking 17 credit hours this semester when most freshman take like 13 or 14. I'm not drowning and I'm not complaining. What I am doing is saying that I have a lot on my plate too.

So no more Elyssa taking everything. I want to help him but I need to help myself too.

I almost called off my entire trip today. I can't believe that was even a thought in my mind. Canceling a 4 day get away with the one person that can make all of this better. That would be absolutely stupid! I'm glad my friends were there to tell me I was being retarded and I was going whether I like it or not. (Thanks btw wanna make the 7 hour drive for me??)

I leave in 8 days and I can't wait. Today was so slow but the rest have been flying.

I need a break. I need a vacation. But most of all I need my boyfriend. I need his comfort right now. And now its impossible to have that comfort.

At the end of the day, I do love him and will never let anything like this come between us. No matter how hard it gets, I am not going anywhere. So whoever thinks otherwise needs to get over it now because i'm here for good!

9 days!

Yesterday I called Chris at work when he told me to, they told me he was busy to call in an hour. So I called exactly an hour later, and he was getting out! I wasn't expecting him out until tomorrow at the earliest! It was great! He fell asleep an hour later, woke up, told him to go to sleep, and he stayed up 2 hours later! It was great!

Today, he stayed asleep until after 2. Got called into work before 3. He was soo not happy. He took it out on me. I felt bad for snapping on him and not letting him let it out. However I felt really bad that day and him not acknowledging that I was so sick I had to go to the dr set me over the edge.

Oh well. It's over now and he has to go to work in the morning. Poor boys don't get much time off at all.

The good news is I go see him in 9 days! I can't wait to see him again! It's crazy! This is a lot for us!

I have so much to do in 9 days but it will all be worth it!

One year Later: Stressful nights, college life, and plans :)

This is my first post in almost a month. A lot has happened in a month. I've been at school for a month, home once, and to my grandparents for food many times! Let's just say I HATE THE FOOD HERE! I also hate living in a dorm. Not only is there no privacy, it's constantly loud, and living in such close quarters is not for me. Like just now there are girls screaming down the halls. They do this all the time, at all hours of the night, doesn't matter if it's the "quiet hours" or not. Ugh I hate it. I can't stand it. Ugh! Chris always says well at least you're not in the barracks. I have been in Chris's barracks and room. It is sooo much nicer than this! It is bigger and they have their own bathrooms. Ohh and I pay damn good money for mine! So needless to say, I will not be living in a dorm next year!

Chris has been really busy lately and in an area that I have to call him at work to get ahold of him. It's definitely annoying. I just called, at the time he told me to call, and he is sleeping. That drives me nuts! When you tell me to call then why can't you be awake! So frustrating!

Anyway, he's been really busy and stressed and let's just say he's taken it out on me. Now don't get me wrong, I love him more than words. I hate being 470 miles from him when he is stressed out because I have no way of making it better. He basically blamed me for things that were out of my control. Yes, I know that I am the only reason he stayed security forces. I know that I am the only reason that he has not been deployed. TO hear him say that and blame it all on me out of haste is what kills me. I literally had to sit there and take it. I couldn't say anything other than I'm so sorry and I love you. That was the extent of what I could do. It killed me. That night was a weak moment for him. I knew none of what he was saying was meant to hurt me, or anything like that. But I really couldn't help it. After a few days of not talking because he was at work and I couldn't get through the line, I finally got to talk to him. He apologized for everything. I felt so bad for him. He said it wasn't meant to be be him blaming me he just needed to vent and that is how it came out. All I said was I completely understand, but don't ever go to sleep without saying you love me when you're out, it scares me. He is the one I take everything out on too. So it's normal for us to be mad at each other for a little while. But we always talk it out....

On a better note, he is happier now and doing much better! Thank goodness! He really scared me! We've gotten to talk to each other a lot so far this week! It's been great. I love weeks like these! He goes on training soon so in two weeks I will be on my way to see him! Depending on what day he says I can leave, I'll be there either the 29th or 30th! I'm so excited! Less than two weeks and I get another weekend with him!

I really am getting lucky with all of this time! I've seen him once last month and hopefully again this month! I love it!

I may complain a lot about the situation that he is in. His schedule absolutely kills. I feel so bad for him because even though he has been there for a while he is still pretty low on the totem pole. He gets stuck working the shitty hours and always working. I feel bad for him.

I can't wait until I go see him again! He told me to bring a nice dress :)

We still don't know when the ball is but we're still planning on going. Kings Bay is the worst base at making plans! Fingers crossed! I have no dress or anything!

It's been a year since I saw him for the first time in 13 weeks! It's crazy to think that a whole year has passed! I remember every detail of that day. I remember staying up late with Gianna while she was sick the night before. I remember not being able to sleep and finally giving up at about 4:30. I remember getting me and Gianna ready, and having her "help me with my makeup" and not being able to eat that morning because I was so nervous. I remember running down the bleachers trying to find him, and it turned out he was already up them so we both ran to each other. I remember that first hug and kiss, the feeling of being whole again. I remember it all like it were yesterday. I was so proud of him, of myself, and our relationship.

3 years ago if you would have told me that I would be with Christopher, he would be a Marine, and we'd still be together. I would have told you that you were crazy! I am so proud of him and who he has become! I do not remember what it was like to be in a "civilian" relationship. Well okay I do, but now my relationship with Christopher means so much more, it is stronger, and way more mature. I do not know what I would do without him. I do not see a life without him anymore. It's Chris and Elyssa. Not just Elyssa anymore.

We may be young but we know what we want! I hate when people say but you're so young! Yeah we're young but we've been together for 2 years, and been through more than most people have.