Todays drama was not mine but I got to deal with it. Story of my life. I love this life but damn does it have its ups and downs. I have tried everything. I have taken the drama and shielded it from Chris because he doesn't need that drama in his life. He doesn't need to know everything I deal with. But today I had a realization. I am done dealing with those problems. All I can do now is tell them to go to him. I've realized that I have stress too. It's not just him. Our stress' may be different and to different extremes but we both have stress. My stress is school and him. I'm taking 17 credit hours this semester when most freshman take like 13 or 14. I'm not drowning and I'm not complaining. What I am doing is saying that I have a lot on my plate too.
So no more Elyssa taking everything. I want to help him but I need to help myself too.
I almost called off my entire trip today. I can't believe that was even a thought in my mind. Canceling a 4 day get away with the one person that can make all of this better. That would be absolutely stupid! I'm glad my friends were there to tell me I was being retarded and I was going whether I like it or not. (Thanks btw wanna make the 7 hour drive for me??)
I leave in 8 days and I can't wait. Today was so slow but the rest have been flying.
I need a break. I need a vacation. But most of all I need my boyfriend. I need his comfort right now. And now its impossible to have that comfort.
At the end of the day, I do love him and will never let anything like this come between us. No matter how hard it gets, I am not going anywhere. So whoever thinks otherwise needs to get over it now because i'm here for good!
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