Wait, say that again?

Last night Chris got out early and surprised me. It was great and totally unsuspected since he had just went down to work. He was soo excited for my trip down in about 2 weeks. Was talking about how he couldn't wait to see me in my dress and all. Left me on cloud 9!

I got my dress today. It's gorgeous! And perfect! I got so excited I posted the picture to Chris's facebook, and told him how excited I was. I thought this guy was just kidding. He said "I'm sorry darling but i would not get shoes or the dress hemmed but Christopher will be at work, we have the list and he is not on it... there is always next year ;-)" So I said how it really wasn't funny that I was excited to come down. He told me how he wasn't kidding and didn't want to be the bearer of bad news and Chris would call when he got off. My friend had commented saying I hope you are kidding her her sake. He said "see now i feel bad, i was just trying to let her no before she did anything else to the dress but think about the romance of wearing it next year right"

So freaking out I call down at work to talk to Chris. I start telling him what was said and he interrupted me and said yeah I know what you're talking about and we're not going. They apparently need people down at work and Chris got stuck working.

Needless to say I am not happy. I have been crying for an hour. This isn't fair at all. Chris will be on his training cycle and has to work now. We had the entire weekend planned. I really needed this weekend with him. I don't know when I will have another weekend with him before New Years. I don't know what to do. It's not fair, and I am so butt hurt.

Zebra shoes? Seriously Elyssa Renee??

So since my last post I have been so super crazy it isn't even funny! I decided Friday that I was going to wear zebra, yes you heard that right, zebra shoes to the ball! After calling Christopher that afternoon and telling him my idea he asked if I was serious?? I said of course I am! He said yeah I'm going to go with no on this one. I said really? uh oh :) He said do you already havethem? I said maybe (I really didn't but I wanted them soo bad!) So he said okay Ill think about it. He called me super early saturday morning, when I say super I mean 3 am! But he called to tell me that he was liking the zebra idea (I mean hey it's better to be somewhere that can be concealed than a clutch or jewelry right??) So I finally find a pair that I love! They don't have my size! So I found a pair that was my size and a good price! It says it will take 2-4 weeks to get here. So as of now I don't have shoes for the ball! Talk about going crazy!

So here is the dress! Obviously :) Here are the shoes! Too bad they don't come in my size anymore :(

Needless to say it has been quite a weekend! This was only one of my worries! If just the shoes were my problem I would be in heaven! But it's not.

Unfortunately I have had killer, and I mean killer, migraines all week. And of course stubborn me doesn't go to the dr for them but I have been taking my medicine. Which I guess is good. But I am still hurting. I know that it is time to call the doctor for preventative medicine but thats yet another pill I have to take everyday. And me being honest...I forget to take them on time. I'm lucky if I even remember that day! Horrible in the means of birth control. But I know that soon I need to call the doctor because I literally can't do these multiple naps during the day and going to bed early and not being able to study because my head kills. Just need that push I guess to go call her. So someone push me :)

Chris was having a rough weekend. There was no way for me to help him. Talk about miserable. He finally talked to me yesterday morning. It didn't go that well. So me being the worry wort that I am, wrote him a 5 1/2 page letter. Every time I write him a letter they are long....he calls them my novels. When he called he could tell there was something wrong. Not going into details but yesterday morning killed me! He asked me what was wrong because I had started to cry. I said do you not remember anything that happened this weekend and this morning. So I told him about the letter. Gave him 3 choices: I can read it now, email/fb it, or send it in the mail. He chose to read it now. So after countless tears and pauses so I could get it together, he understood and told me what was really going on. It didn't really have anything to do with me. Of course what he had said was true but wasn't why he was so mad.

But this got me thinking.....when Chris gets really stressed he usually takes it out on me. Which is fine because I do the exact same thing. But I feel like he gets stressed more often and more extreme. Which I feel bad for because I know that when I push him it sets him off. So when we started talking about what was wrong with him he said I don't really want to talk about it. All I said was you know I am here whenever you need me and I will always listen. So he spilled. I feel so bad for him because there is no real way for me to help him, especialy with me here. So I will have to wait for 2 weeks to be able to talk to him about it.

I won't put all of his business on my blog since it was super personal and if he didn't want to talk to me about it right away. But I just want him to know, in case he reads this, that I really am here for you. 24/7 no matter what time, or day of the week I am here. I share everything with him and him opening up last night was great. I miss him so much and hate that he goes thru this alone.

I leave in 15 days to see him for like 5 days! I am so excited! When we were talking last night he asked me to schedule a night photoshoot. Now let me give some background about Christopher and pictures. Chris and I have been together for about 2 years now. I have wanted pictures since before he went to boot camp, so about a year and a half ago. I am just now getting those pictures! 3 times in 2 days! We have one Friday for the ball, one saturday afternoon, and another saturday night. He has this obsession with sunset...I have no clue lol. ButI will say he is getting very excited! Now instead of 2 outfits to choose I have 4! I just decided on my 2 outfits lol. He apparently got a amazing jacket that matches mine so he said we needed an extra shoot since I had his outfits picked out already :) But guess that means he is taking me shopping that thursday to get an outfit :) He knows how to throw curveballs at me and make life interesting.

Ahh I can't wait! 15 days can't come soon enough!

Where Did The Romance Go?

Today I was determined to have a great day! Hadn't heard from Chris in a couple of days but wasn't letting that stop me. I had over 300 comments on 2 statuses today. I learned something today: when your man is being an ass or you can't talk to him GO TO YOUR GIRLS! They really saved me today! They had me laughing the entire time! I love it! Great times!

But they made me realize something...back when Chris and I first started dating he used to be so romantic and cute! Used to take me to dinner all the time, have movie nights, bring me random things that he knew I was craving and this may sound bad but catered to my every need. Now I'm not saying I want him to cater to me 24/7 or do all of that because right now I know that is impossible. When Chris was training he fell asleep on me one night when I was having a really bad night. The next day he felt so bad I had 2 dozen roses waiting for me within 24 hours. I attached a picture. Now all I get is a "I'm sorry" the next day. For valentines day, not only did he take me out on a date night but he also got Gianna baby roses and me a dozen roses to match Gia's. He used to be soo romantic! Now all I get is....nothing. For my birthday he was working so I got a phone call 10 minutes after my birthday for 2 minutes. I love him and I am very thankful for everything he does for me. Don't get me wrong here! But I miss those little things! Even miss boot camp letters, and emails. He used to send the most adorable messages telling me why he loved me. Now when I try to be cute and start it it gets blown off. Idk what to do anymore!

I think we hit that speed bump where all the cute, romantic things ran their course. We've only been dating for 2 years. We should still be doing the romantic things....

Where is the love Christopher Joseph?? I know your Daddy taught you better than this! I've seen what he does for your Mom! :(

Oh Oh Oh October please go away!

It has been 16 days since I last posted! That is nuts! Well a lot has happened in the 16 days that I have not posted. I went to Kings Bay, duh! Well when I got back I was in Greenville for3 days.My Friday class got cancelled so I got to leave Thursday afternoon! I was pretty excited for 5 days at home, in my ownbig bed, seeing my family as well as Chris's, and my puppies!

When I got home I was attacked with dogs! I had the dachshund up on my lap, and my two big dogs pushing back to get closer and get some love! I loveeee my dogs! They always l

ove you! The next day I took my brother to school at 7:

30 am! Very, very early :) Then came back and took a nap with my Mag-pie! She woke up as the flash hit her eyes but she was laying on the backs of my legs! I love

it! Chris was replaced during naptimes while I

was there!

Later I had lunch with my Dad wh

ere I spilled the beans about changing my major. He was soo not

happy. I still don't really understand why. I think my family thinks that being a nurse is so great and glorified? But it isn't what I want anymore. Like yeah I am positive that being a nurse would be great, for a while. I want a job that is fun, changing, and all that all the time! I don't know what is going on. However, I know what I want and that will not change. I have t

he biggest and best supporter!

He may be about 470 miles away but he will always support me! I thought my Dad might be a little weird about it but not as upset as he was. But it is my life. I will do what I want. Everyone knows that I have always been hard headed and nothing will stop

me. Not even unsupportive family. They will come around. It definitely makes me scared for the manyconversations to come in the future.

Later that day little brother and I went to his sophomore year home

coming! I met up and caught up with friends from grades below me and my graduating class! It was great! I froze my booty off and got stuck in a lot of traffic but had a lot of time to catch up with my brother. It was a lot of fun! Then he had his homecoming dance the next day. After a few altercations with my parents that morning I decided to shower and ignore them. Good idea right? Well I ignored my mom, and made sure she knew I was not talking to her. My dad? No I am a complete daddy's girl. I admit it is a problem. But we ended up having to bathe the dogs outside because they decid

ed they wanted to run all over Morrison Plantation.

Thank you Mom and Dad for picking a huge neighborhood to move into! So while we were bathing them we got to talk alot about it.

(They are fat beagles and beagle bassets so they get super dirty! Plus Libby decided to roll in the mud while she was soaked! Brilliant dog!) Then they got to sit in th

e driveway to completely dry off so that their hair looked hilarious dried! I ended up br

ushing them while my brother and parents went out (apparently I st

unk...). I had emptied a Walmart bag full of hair twice! It was nuts!

Dan(little brother) and his girlfriend looked quite spiffy at their homecoming! Might I just add Daniel doesn't dress up likeever! Rarely shaved,or showered for that matter before Tori! She has truly worked wonders for them! They looked so cute! She is gorgeous! And I guess Dan is kinda

handsome too! (

yuck :D) I love these 2! haha he is hilarious! I am pretty sure that he stole this f

ace from me! He is exactly 2 1/2 years younger than me but we round it up to 3! Just because he is younger does not mean smaller. He is a good 8 inches taller than me! Soo not fair! Even in super high stripper heels I don't come near how tall he is!

I remember when I lived at home, we shared a bathroom. He rarely used it. But almost every night we would end up brushing our teeth at the same time. He would just sit there and look/stare at me, smile, then look

at me again and start giggling! I couldn't figure out what he was doing! So I busted out laughing! He was looking at how short I was! But I will always remember our teeth brushing laughs! Goofball! I love that "little" guy and no matter what ends up happening he will always be my little brother and I know that

I can always go to him with anything. No matter how

bad it is. He is an amazing little brother!

The next day my mom and I had decided to go try on dresses, a last chance to make up

type thing. We tried on about every single non

slutty long dress in the store!

We found one that would be great but we were completely set on the red one....so we bought the red one! It shouldbe here next week! Then alterations. Then ball time! We're cutting it super late!I am so excited but completely and utterly stressed out beyond belief! I know that it will all work out. But these next 3 weeks might be the death of me! Hurry up November! I can't wait to see him in his blues! It has been a year! And 2 promotions later! Ahh!!!

Well I am back to Greenville. I have been back a week already. We went to the fair and well that was interesting! Ate enough fat and grease to last me a year! I met up with Kayla. And almost got into a pretty bad accident on the way back to school. People really don't know how to drive. They just randomly slammed on their brakes and the

guy in front of me pulled off the road so I wouldn't hit him, and I completely slammed on brakes and bottomed my car out. Great fun! Taylor and I took our first picture together haha we have lived together since august and just now took a picture. We had already been on one ride that made me want to puke! Those rides really do get bigger when you are older! It was a ton of fun though! We had funnel cakes, a ton of fries, tried nasty alligator on a stick (miss my real stuff :( ), cotton candy, and I saw a fried milky way! Totally weird! But I will definitely go again!

Chris was out of the wire for like 5 days! It was great! We had a bit of a rough weekend, but that was because of lac

k of sleep and just being rude to each other. But at the end of the day I still love my jerkface! He is the love of my life!

He went back to work on Monday. So I am used to a lot happening the day he goes in. Mainly because I can't contact him and all that jazz. Well this Monday the whole world collapsed on me! Nothing was going right! I didn't sleep well at all, thanks boyfriend for falling asleep and not answering to tell me good night, I was up early when he call

ed to tell me he was going to work and couldn't fall back asleep. Then a shit ton of drama went down. It was all day. One thing after another. And I just couldn't take it anymore. By the time he called I had literally reached my breaking point and am so thankful that he called. Within minutes of him asking how my day was I had completely lost it and started balling. When I am crying on the phone with Chris while he is at work (rare) I usually get silent and he asks questions and he can tell because it takes a while to answer. This time I just didn't care. I let him know how upset I was. He knows that all I need is to hear that everything is going to be okay and that he loves me. Well he did that perfectly this time. He said "baby go to your facebook. look at those pictures of us. do you see how happy we both were? remember those times and look forward to the next happy times. look at them when we can't talk and when you

are getting down to remember

that I love you and that it all is going to be okay! I love you and promise you that it will be okay!"

My heart melted! Truly Melted! He spent the rest of the conversation trying to get me to laugh, and succeeding!

I have never really been friends with girls. I guess we just clash? Idk. But I am usually closer friends to guys. Well I have found my best friend. And it is moments like that that make me realize 1. how much he really does love me. and 2. that he really is there for me for everything, thick and thin, happy and sad. I always saw myself with a boyfriend. But never a best fri

end and a boyfriend all in one! I will never forget that conversation. He completely made it all better! I love him soo much! I fall more and more in love with him everyday!

Sunday was a pretty big day for us! 2 years ago on Sunday I got "drunk texted" all night from a boy who doesn't remember half of what he said to me! Who would have known that exactly 2 years later we would be madly in love, best friends, still together :), and

making plans for the future! I looked back at a ton of old pictures! From the week we started "officially dating" to boot camp graduation to 3 weeks ago! I can't believe how much we have both changed. We have grown up physically and emotionally. We grew up together I guess you could say. A lot has changed over the past 2 years, and a lot has happened. It is crazy to look back at those times and see how happy we were, and to look at the pictures from my last trip down! We are still just as happy, if not happier than we were back then! I can't believe it! I love you soo much handsome!

Now I must go to sleep! I didn't get my daily "I'm alive" phone call! But oh well! He better call tomorrow! :)

Weekend in Kings Bay :)

So I just got back late last night from my weekend in Kings Bay. It was an amazing 4 days! Yes I said 4! Greenville was flooding Wednesday, like gross out! I had texted Christopher to see if I could leave early. I texted around 2ish? Still hadn't heard from him at 7? I had the car completely packed and ready to go, gas in the car and all. At 8:30 I got a super long text saying he had been in an accident he was fine and I could come if I wanted to drive that long that he would stay awake with me. I would get there at 4 am! I wanted to come really bad but knew I shouldn't have. So I didn't. I talked to him until he had fallen asleep. And told him I would leave first thing in the morning. So I got the email saying my school was running on a delay due to the flooding. I sat at the bus stop for about 45 minutes waiting for the first bus! Finally a transportation worker came and told me they were running on a delay as well. So I freaked out! Finally I found a friend who could take me to the car lot! Thanks Dani! :)

After what seemed like the longest 7 hour drive ever! I got to Kings Bay about an hour before Chris got off. So I went to see a friend and waited....and waited.....and waited :)

Finally I got the text message that said come to the gate without the sub and HURRY! So I left and when I got there I got the TIGHTEST hug ever! It was great! We got me all checked into base and into the hotel. By that time it was like 7ish and I was soo tired and had a headache! So he laid down with me for about an hour then had to go back to work for a few minutes! I had fallen asleep and hear this banging on the door like 10 minutes after he had left. I shook it off like it was nothing and fell back asleep. Yeah he didn't stop banging on the door until I came and opened it. He had a room key and all, just had to be difficult! It was 10 by the time we had gotten groceries, picked up some food, and got back to base. By 11 we were passed out! He had work at 2:45 in the morning. Do the math. Thats about 3 hours of sleep. A little less because he had to get uniforms ready. I had woken up with him and couldnt' fall back asleep. I got maybe an extra 30-45 minutes of sleep after he had left. It was around noon, I was doing homework, not expecting Chris back for at least an hour or two, and then this stinky man in woodlands walked in my door! IT was great! However, after he showered he fell asleep until like 7! I couldn't wake him up for anything! But eventually I did and we had a movie night :)

The next day he took me to the zoo, and to the mall, and the nex, and all that good stuff! Then had a date night that we got pretty dressed up for :)

Sunday was hard! We tried doing a normal day thing. Went to a movie, visited some friends, and lunch. I got stung by a wasp, to which Christopher told me to "suck it up" haha. But after leaving our friends house, we got halfway to base and I started crying. He saw me crying and told me not to start it and we weren't even to base and it'll be okay. By the time we got to the barracks and up to his room I completely lost it. I had a complete breakdown for like 45 minutes! He just held me, and let me cry, and was really good. After 45 minutes he old me it was time to go and he didn't want me getting home late. So unfortunately I had to leave. He walked me to my car, gave me kisses, told me he loved me, and off I went. And here I am back in Greenville. But I get to go see him in 5 weeks!!!!!!

So I am trying to find a dress for the ball. Chris likes this one. I'm thinking its the one. Plus it is on sale which is like even better :)

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