Zebra shoes? Seriously Elyssa Renee??

So since my last post I have been so super crazy it isn't even funny! I decided Friday that I was going to wear zebra, yes you heard that right, zebra shoes to the ball! After calling Christopher that afternoon and telling him my idea he asked if I was serious?? I said of course I am! He said yeah I'm going to go with no on this one. I said really? uh oh :) He said do you already havethem? I said maybe (I really didn't but I wanted them soo bad!) So he said okay Ill think about it. He called me super early saturday morning, when I say super I mean 3 am! But he called to tell me that he was liking the zebra idea (I mean hey it's better to be somewhere that can be concealed than a clutch or jewelry right??) So I finally find a pair that I love! They don't have my size! So I found a pair that was my size and a good price! It says it will take 2-4 weeks to get here. So as of now I don't have shoes for the ball! Talk about going crazy!

So here is the dress! Obviously :) Here are the shoes! Too bad they don't come in my size anymore :(

Needless to say it has been quite a weekend! This was only one of my worries! If just the shoes were my problem I would be in heaven! But it's not.

Unfortunately I have had killer, and I mean killer, migraines all week. And of course stubborn me doesn't go to the dr for them but I have been taking my medicine. Which I guess is good. But I am still hurting. I know that it is time to call the doctor for preventative medicine but thats yet another pill I have to take everyday. And me being honest...I forget to take them on time. I'm lucky if I even remember that day! Horrible in the means of birth control. But I know that soon I need to call the doctor because I literally can't do these multiple naps during the day and going to bed early and not being able to study because my head kills. Just need that push I guess to go call her. So someone push me :)

Chris was having a rough weekend. There was no way for me to help him. Talk about miserable. He finally talked to me yesterday morning. It didn't go that well. So me being the worry wort that I am, wrote him a 5 1/2 page letter. Every time I write him a letter they are long....he calls them my novels. When he called he could tell there was something wrong. Not going into details but yesterday morning killed me! He asked me what was wrong because I had started to cry. I said do you not remember anything that happened this weekend and this morning. So I told him about the letter. Gave him 3 choices: I can read it now, email/fb it, or send it in the mail. He chose to read it now. So after countless tears and pauses so I could get it together, he understood and told me what was really going on. It didn't really have anything to do with me. Of course what he had said was true but wasn't why he was so mad.

But this got me thinking.....when Chris gets really stressed he usually takes it out on me. Which is fine because I do the exact same thing. But I feel like he gets stressed more often and more extreme. Which I feel bad for because I know that when I push him it sets him off. So when we started talking about what was wrong with him he said I don't really want to talk about it. All I said was you know I am here whenever you need me and I will always listen. So he spilled. I feel so bad for him because there is no real way for me to help him, especialy with me here. So I will have to wait for 2 weeks to be able to talk to him about it.

I won't put all of his business on my blog since it was super personal and if he didn't want to talk to me about it right away. But I just want him to know, in case he reads this, that I really am here for you. 24/7 no matter what time, or day of the week I am here. I share everything with him and him opening up last night was great. I miss him so much and hate that he goes thru this alone.

I leave in 15 days to see him for like 5 days! I am so excited! When we were talking last night he asked me to schedule a night photoshoot. Now let me give some background about Christopher and pictures. Chris and I have been together for about 2 years now. I have wanted pictures since before he went to boot camp, so about a year and a half ago. I am just now getting those pictures! 3 times in 2 days! We have one Friday for the ball, one saturday afternoon, and another saturday night. He has this obsession with sunset...I have no clue lol. ButI will say he is getting very excited! Now instead of 2 outfits to choose I have 4! I just decided on my 2 outfits lol. He apparently got a amazing jacket that matches mine so he said we needed an extra shoot since I had his outfits picked out already :) But guess that means he is taking me shopping that thursday to get an outfit :) He knows how to throw curveballs at me and make life interesting.

Ahh I can't wait! 15 days can't come soon enough!